When is enough enough?

I'm 37 years old, have had 7 pregnancies (the last two being miscarriages) and am still uncertain if I'm done having kids. Eek!!

My youngest at home is nearly 10 and I've got kids in stages of 2 a gap and then 2. I hated the thought of the kids not having a companion to grow up with. Which is also part of my dilemma of having another baby. Do I stop at just one? If I do then how alone will they feel as they grow up and the others all fly the coop? Where too does work come into things, as I think I'd hate to juggle work, babies and home.

I've done both, worked with toddlers and stayed home with toddlers. I was particularly blessed to just chill with the last two and not be so stressed with doing it all all of the time. The only thing I felt compromised on was no money and not much time to myself. I could go to work partime but not sure what the reality of that would be and whether I'd enjoy both.

I'm reading a book at the moment by Beverley LaHaye and Terri Blackstock - Times and Seasons (part of the Seasons series). In it one of the characters is 50 and still broody. So maybe it's a normal feeling.

I don't have romantic notions of being pregnant, I know my back will kill me, my sciatic will probably play up, my hemorrhoids would be horrendous again if I'm not careful, and I'll be tired and working. I don't have romantic notions of a new born baby, sleep broken nights, crying, feeding, dealing with existing family needs and baby sitting requirements again. Mind you we have support in the kids, with friends and experience. To then go through it a second time - 6 kids at home?! Am I mad!?!

What part of allowing God to create our family do we give in on? Do the last two miscarriages mean that our time is done? Do I just settle down and wait for grandchildren?

Much to ponder on, no answers coming to the fore but it's ok. I'll wait.