Mixed feelings

Wow, my emotions are all over the place. Today I spent the day with my youngest and went out for lunch. We went and bought her some new clothes and it was s nice time.

I found us critiquing lunch and was disappointed with hers. I said to her we must be getting picky and maybe that's partly to blame by Masterchef and the fact that I can cook and cook well when I put my mind to it.

This evening I just sat down and couldn't get motivated again. Took my youngest boy to his sleepover and nearly burst into tears with this unsettled feeling listening to Aftermath (Hillsong United's latest album).

It all seems to stem from me not going to church regularly, not getting into it when I do go and a whole mess of other feelings due to friends being no longer able to be spoken to as we used to.

A year on and a loss of a friendship still aches so much.

Ah well. Onwards ever onwards

My devotion email received this evening said that an indecisive mind is as bad as being double minded. So I choose to acknowledge the crap and move forward past it

Selah