Broken promises

I'm low. After a good day - a beautiful day, a bike ride, a workout, a bike ride an amazing lunch with a friend, a stop to drop off an article, a quick chat with a pal and then home.

The problem?... On Saturday we had a special meal with friends and I started to clean up the kitchen afterwards (as you do). I was informed by my husband that he would clean up the kitchen the next day. Guess what, he didn't.

So today is Tuesday, I've been out on days off during the day and he's been home. Yesterday I came home to be informed I was on dinner - woo... No notice but managed to spin out a couple of quiches which were delicious. In the meantime, hubby went to bed at 6.30pm. So I went out for the evening to be cheered up for a much needed break.

My arrival home was met with one son missing his bus because it 'was early', dinner to be done and my hubby going for a prearranged run. #2 son had got a headstart on the dinner, which was fantastic but guess what? The washing up was still there. Groan.

It's not just about the washing up though. It's about the broken promises. It's about the attitude behind the statement. It's about saying you'll do something and then thinking you're more important that the other by not following through with it.

On the weekend my hubby had finally presented me with a Pandora bracelet that I'd asked for since before September last year. It was simple, it was sweet but it was very late. I try and feel grateful but my heart feels let down by the fact it has taken so long to get a long wished for present.

I feel so ungrateful that I am not happier and I'm not sure why. Is it just further disappointment? Do I expect too much? Do I put too high a limit for my husband to be able to achieve something positive?

So, left with questions and no answers for now... I wait for peace to return, that and sleep!